Years of no panic attacks and all of a sudden - a reader's story
I had a panic attack in my sleep for the first time in almost a decade.
I woke up with my heart racing, hands tingling and mind racing. I had to get up and get my roommate up to help me calm down before it got worse but I did start to feel my heart pounding and it just got more intense.
I always pace when I'm going into them and I want to call 911. I had done that in the past and spent a time or four in the ER due to panic disorders. I thought I was going nuts. My roommate got me to sit down and start breathing with my hands covering my mouth and it seemed to start helping.
It happened so fast I couldn't stop it like I have been able to before. After about 10 minutes I felt I was coming out of it. I always feel a little drunk when it happens. I also feel really down and upset for about a day or two. The next day I didn't want to do anything and I needed to get on my Uber app to drive some and I just got too scared of getting one while driving like I used to.
When I get these I try to figure out what triggered it of course. This was had to have been due to many stressful situations I deal with daily like we all do. It finally caught up to me. Too much rushing, going, not making deadlines, caffeine intake is more lately, I'm not exercising as much as I used to as well. I think what finally gave in was I lost a very close friend recently almost two weeks ago. Funny thing is was years ago back in 2004, he had actually been a friend that called 911 for me while I had a panic attack! lol.. I scared the crap out of him. I feel that his passing finally just did it with me and built up.
Panic attacks are scary. I try to look at the positive in them as like it's releasing things in our bodies that no longer serve us and have been trying to get out but had no way of releasing until it manifests for so long it comes out that way. It's a messed up way to get rid of whatever it is you need to get rid of but at least it's out.
Panic attacks have taught me to take time for myself and meditate, breathe deeply and be more positive in life. I know this one recently definitely caught my attention on somethings i need to work on in my life. I also need to stop letting things boggle up inside.