i feel like the sky is falling

I would say the foundation of my anxiety began when my brother passed away, I was 16. It was hard to show any emotions when I was so young. Ten years later, my dad passed and it was a strong reminder of how powerless I am in this world.

There's no way to stop tears from falling, no words that can comfort my family's broken hearts. That's when the despair kicked in, it's hard to accept that there are somethings in life we have no control over. So when these natural disasters start happening, things I cannot control. I start to freak out. I want to hide, so I do. I feel like the "hear no evil, speak no evil, see no evil" has meaning like never before. Deep down I feel like I'm just waiting to die, it's this inevitable stage that I'm just waiting to get to. As soon as I come to this realization, I want to come out of hiding, I want to enjoy these moments that I have left before death. I want to be happy.

This might not be a very inspiring message but it's from my heart.

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Jul 15, 2015

by: Jude @ anxietyunravelled

My heart goes out to you and your family. It’s hard to find words of comfort for people who have lost loved ones and every one of us will experience this loss at some stage – we are all in this together.

Unfortunately, we all have to find our own way of dealing with the uncertainty that is life. Sometimes discovering that there is very little over which we have control is liberating and allows us to stop worrying so much! Living more in the moment and trying to get the most out of life as you have done, allowing that there is almost certainly much more to existence than we are aware of and letting go of resistance to those things that can’t be changed, seem to be a very important part of this process. Very best wishes to you and your family.

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