Too much built up stress

by Alora
(Tecas)


I have a bad habit of bottling up my feelings.

I didn't realize how bad until one night in November. It was like any other night, nothing was out of place. My parents had left to go out and I was at home babysitting my younger sibilings.

After they went to bed I took a shower and laid down. I closed my eyes to rest when all the sudden my ears felt hot and I started to feel dizzy.

I thought to myself, maybe I just need a drink of water. I walked to the kitchen to grab a glass of water and I felt my body getting heavier. I felt disconnected from reality and very disoriented. The world around me felt unreal so I quickly laid back down again. The symtoms worsened , I felt like I was going to faint and my heart started racing. Frightened, I called my parents. I thought I was going to have a heart attack.

I don't remember how long it took them to get back but It seemed like forever. The whole time I was laying down waiting for them, my knees felt a hundred pounds. I literally thought I was going to die.

When they came they were totally freaked out which made me freak out even more. I explained my symptoms to my parents and told them everything. Being that my mom is a nurse she checked my vitals and said everything was fine. I was still flipping out so I started trembling to the point where it felt uncontrollable.

My mom said those were symptoms of a full blown panic attack. My dad sat beside me on the bed rubbing my head to calm my nerves. I felt the urge to cry, so I did. I cried and cried not because of the panic attack but because I let myself get to the point of the panic attack.

I realized how much stress and sadness I'd let pile up inside. I have never had a panic attack that severe in my life. My dad sat with me for an hour and a half until finally I calmed down. So I say to you all, talk about your feelings. Bottling them up is unheathly and it might lead to a night of misery.

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Nov 22, 2015

by: jude @ anxietyunravelled

Hi Alora,

You’re absolutely right – we all need to find a way to release built up stress. If we can do that every day then we’re really doing ourselves and everyone around us a big favour! Yoga nidra, meditation and yoga are great ways of doing this safely and at your own pace. Sometimes talking to others helps too, but not always. It’s a great skill to be able to listen to others without trying to fix their problems or without making it more difficult for you to work through them and let them go. It may be one reason why counsellors and psychologists are paid so much!

Anxiety Unravelled is dedicated to helping people find the best way for each individual to release stress. My 14 Day Treatment Plan
provides a really good structure for putting these changes in place.

Hoping you’re on the mend :)
Jude

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